Chapter 9♡

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ana kint 7aiil mistansa li2ana u5ooy yay ilkuwait for his Christmas holiday wba3ad my cousin 7e9a bityi li2ana ihya ba3ad tadris barra ilkwait, bas ihya tadriss ib willaya thanya. 'though her Christmas holiday starts 3ugub min ma jam3at u5ooy. jam3at ya3goob their Christmas holiday wayid a6wal.(adri madri shlon fi a huge time gap li2ana this is now in December willi gabul in September bas i3tabraw inni mafi time gap lool madri walla) 

Bas anna illi kilish malli 5ulga is exams! we start next week but on Monday because we have a study leave on Sunday. 

ilyom it's Thursday wlyom it's zwara fa I quickly took a shower, dried my hair, put it in a side fish tail and I wore this (with the utility jacket open).

umi: Jouryy! 

me: kani yaya

ana 5athait talafoni w7a6ait 3u6ir

umi:Yalla ta3alay broo7ich intay im2a5ratna

me: kani yumma il7een ayi

I ran down the stairs w6ila3t barra wdi5alt ilsayara. 6ab3an 6ool il6ireej ana w5alood ga3d nithawash and my parents ga3d isaktoona.

*at zwara*

I was extremely bored li2ana illi gadi min my girl cousins wayid yitkabiron illa 7e9a w7e9a mu hni :( bas bityi ba3ad isboo3 so I can't wait! I was on twitter li2ana malal. I sent a dm to M7ammad. We started chatting this week and maybe just maybe I like him just a little bit. Bas matwa8u3 uhwa he likes.

It makes me really happy because it's the old him back, and he's improved. Ya3ni uhwa jad he's sweet wa5la8a zaina and he's very kind.

Rad 3alay ba3ad cham minutes wga3d asolif wiya but he's answering in short sentences w ya inna za3lan aw im3a9ib.

jouryal*****: m7amad shfeek, sh9ayir

m7amadal*****: walashay

jouryal*****: 3ayal laish imnafis?

m7amadal*****: ana mu imnafis

jouryaly*****: 5air inshalla :p

jouryaly*****: la2 jad sh9ayir?

he ignored me, I tried again in half an hour bas he still ignored me. 

Kint 7adi mitmalila fa ri7t 3ind il9bayan.

Thamer is 14, younger than me by one year, bas il7mar a6wal minni wikilla i2athini li2ana he's taller than me. He's cute but I don't like him that way. Ya3ni he's like an annoying brother. Ya3ni bu'6ub6 nafs 5alood ba3ad cham sinna bas inna 5alood ga6atta sa5eefa 6ali3 3alay. Wait chinna sabait nafsi lol. La la a9lan ana ga6ati 3ajeeeba *flips hair* ok bala tifilsif and back to the story.

Ana ba3ad kint ga3da ma3a 7amad w Bader. 7amad akbar wa7id minna, he's 17. Bader akbar mini bas only in 10 days and he's my closest cousin to me from the guys ya3ni. He's tall, tan and fit wya3ni mazyoon I guess bas kilish ma 7ibba that way. a9lan uhwa wain wil7ub wain hatha 7adda iwadeeni ilfir3 w5ala9 ma minna fayda :') wla ba3ad mashi li2ana ma 3inda laysan. bas 3adi li2n 9ob bait yadi fi fir3 greeb. 

ana, badoor, thamer, and my baby cousins ra'3ad and A7mad ri7na ilfir3 bas nothing else happend laiman radait ilbait and I watched tv shows till I went to sleep. 

***

*Friday, one week later*

I was studying for my physics mid year exam. Chan asma3 ilbab yitba6al wd5ilat umi.

umi: Joury 7abeebti adri inich ta3banna min ilimti7anat wildirassa bas tara I'm very proud of you ga3d tadriseen o tshideen 7ailich bil madrissa. Shrayich ilyom as a treat ni6la3 shopping? 

me: 9ij?! 

6ab3an anna mu im9adga 3umri min il wanasa 7assa inni min7akra bas madrissa 7ag exams- then house for studying- madrissa for exams- house for studying and all over again.

umi: ee yala ba3ad sa3a o ni9 ibni6la3, gaylatlich il7een li2ana adri yabeelich sinna titzahibain.

me: 7aram 3alaich yumma anna? 

umi: ee intay, yalla 7abeebti tzahibay.

She kissed me on the cheek and left.

I took a quick shower and then dried my hair. I straightend it and curled the tips. Then I wore this (with the cardigan open and the shirt tucked in)

*7:30pm*

We were here since ilthalath winu9, it'3adaina wri7na shopping wtawna we stopped. Ri7na ana  obumi bucks li2ana ubooy, ya3goob w5alid biyoon fa gilnalhum they find us here. 

Ana ri7t 6ilabt willi alga Badoor and u5oo Thamer who's (obviously) also my cousin. Yaw g3idow ma3anna wba3ad chithee five mins yaw i5wani wbooy... 7essa!

7e9a: JOOOURYY!!

me: 7e9aaa!

we hugged each other w akeed people looked at us weirdly bas uhma shaku I don't even care I just miss her so much

me: yal7mara laish ma gilteeli inich bityeen ilyom wmu bachir

7e9a: shfeech ya3ni surprise :p 

***

5alti w5ali ba3ad yaw wilkbar ra7aw yit3ashon il7een it's 8:15, bas i7na ri7na nitmasha kilina ba3dain ri7na the food court. Thamer w7e9a bu'3ow Taco Bell bas ana wbadoor ri7na McDonalds. 6ilabna w wigafna ni6arna our order fa ga3d insolif wni'67ak.

***

me: baba pleeease, walla bachir ra7adriss bas 3alashan bitnam mu ma3nata ma ra7 adris willi 3afeek yubba

ubooy: inshalla inshalla bas amana 3ad dirsay ok? 

me: ee ee shukran babaa!<3

I kissed his head w ri7t 3ind 7e9a.

me: 7e9a namay 3indi. 

7e9a: ha la2, lazim a6ali3 ashya2i. Intay namay 3indi

me: ay bit6al3een ashya2ich agu9 eedi lo ma troo7een wbas tnameen. faya3ni nami 3indi yalla 3ad

7e9a: chub chub

me: 3indi lich suwalif waaayid

7e9a: suwalif ha? ok anam 3indich. 

me: typical 7e9a

7e9a: ohhu lat 5aleeni ahawin she said sticking her tounge out and then she side hugged me.

***

*the next day*

*at 10am*

7e9a: Jooooooury! Joury Joury Joury Joury Joury jooouury

me: shtabeeen

7e9a: yalla goomay abi aroo7 a6la3 7ag ilryoog.

me: la magdar lazim adris

7e9a: wana yaybatni hni laish? malat

me: 3alaich. wtara I have a lot to tell you

*tells her everything that happend

7e9a: ulla ulla kil hatha 9ar? inzain jarbay

tkalmeena yimkin ya36eech yawh

me: ha la2 mabi

7e9a: inzain nizlay 5al nitrayag

***

we just ate breakfast kanat Maria imsawya pancakes fa 6ab3an me and 7e9a klaina laman gilna bas. 7e9a ra7at titsaba7 fa anna gilt 5al a7awil akalma yimkin irid 3alay, especially since he's already online so he'll see it.

Jouryal*****: m7amad laish ga3d ta7girni, anna shsawait?

I closed my phone chan 3ala6ool the screen lights up meaning he answerd

M7amadal*****: Joury ana kilish ma higaitich tkooneen chthi

jouryal*****: akoon shnu?

m7amadal*****: la 5ala9 walla shay

jouryal*****: la shnu walla shay, fi shay. inzain fahimni ana shsawait

6ab3an rad 7igarni o even though I kept convincing myself that I didn't care, I did. so much. 

***

*on Sunday*

*at the school bas still ma ran iljaras mal il6aboor bugga chthi 20 minutes*

my friends were at their usual place fa ri7t wgi3adt after ma I hugged kil ilbanat minak. M7ammad can ga3d mu wayid ib3eed ma3a rab3a.

me: *tells Jawan about the dms he sent yesterday*

Jawan: roo7ay si2li sh'3a9da

me: la mabi fashla

Jawan: tabeeni ayi wiyach

me: la la 3adi, 5ala9 baroo7 bas madri shagool fashla mara wa7da chithi aroo7la wagoola ta3al bakalmik

Jawan: goolay wajib aw shay

me: umm ok

gimt ri7t 3inda, can fi cham wa7id bas ma kint a3arf '3air 3abdalla, na9ir, 3ali and obviously m7amad. salamt 3alaihum wuhma salimaw 3alay

me: m7amad, 3adi itsa3idni ib wajibna ilingilaiza, ma fihamta

m7amad: *confused* ma kan 3indina wajib

3ad ib hal la7'6a bu'3ait ilar'6 tibla3ni

me: shfeek nisait hathak illi it's due today

3a6aita na'6ra watwa8a3 fiham '3a9di

m7amad: oh 9a7. imshay the library mini iz3aj.

***

we sat in the corner of the library wain mafi a7ad

me: m7amad ana shsawait? sh'3a9dik yom giltli inta ma higaitni chithi?

his eyebrows stitched together with frustration.

m7amad: Tadreen sh'3a9di

me: la2 min9iji, ana ma sawait shay '3ala6

m7amad: 6ab3an, li2anaich intay ma ti3tabrain hatha shay '3ala6. intay ma3a akthar min 9bay wa7id.

ana awal shay chiftich ma3a hathak illi bilmadrissa gilt 5ala9 la akalimha, akeed 7abeebha ma yabeech t7acheen 9bayan thanyeen, li2ana lo ib mukani chan ana 3a9abt. bas on Friday yom ri7t il avenues chan achoofich ma3a hathak. 5ala9 I lost all my respect for you.

uhwa gam birioo7 chan ag'6uba min eeda

me: minu hathail, walla I'm not in a relaitionship wa9lan on Friday kint 6al3a ma3a umi. 9abr 9abr inta mitta bu'6ib6 chiftni?

m7amad: madri chthi bilail can bil food court

I was surprises li2ana I seriously had no idea what he was talking about. 

Wait, laykoon 3abala Badoor and I are together yom kinna we're waiting for our food. la2 akeed '3a9da Bader, minu '3aira ya3ni.

me: 9ob mcdonalds 9a7, hatha kan my cousin Bader wkint 6al3a ma3a kil 3ayliti, it was just a coincidence that it was just me and him at mac, ilbaji ra7ow mukan thani.

m7amad: inzain o minu hatha illi after school kinti ma3a?

me: minu? jad I have no idea who you're talking about

m7amad: hathak illi gabil sboo3 ya marich min ilmadrissa

me: inshalla mu kil 9bay itchoofni ga3d akalma 3abalik ana I'm in a relashionship with him. I guess you don't remember him bas hatha u5ooy ya3goob tawa kan rad min amreeca wkint mu chayfitta minzimaaan.

I stood up to leave but this time it was his turn to stop me

m7amad: stop, I'm sorry I let the jelousy get the best of me

me: jelousy?

uhwa isti7a, w5dooda 9arat 7amra. Waay ishawig. waaay kilish mu waktich ya Joury tfakreen chthi.

m7amad: asif, bas ma kint abeech 7ag a7ad '3airi, Joury ana a7ibich.

*ran iljaras*

he smiled at me, a smile that could brighten up a whole city. Waved at me and left. I stood there speechless until the librarian shood me off to go to il6aboor before lessons start.

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Chapter 8♡

Mohammed's POV

Kint tawni 6ali3 min a5ir 7i9a wga3d asolif wiya 3azooz o Ahmad. It's home time and everyone is being picked up. Ana hadait il9bayan wri7t 9ob wain i5ti il9'3eera, Haya waits for me. She's 10 years old. She looks like me, ya3ni illi ichoofna igool i7na i5wan. il'6ahir ibtit2a5ar shway li2ana lai7een ma yat. 

I was just looking around at everyone when I saw it. My heart broke into a million pieces. She was actually starting to warm up to me, and then I see this. Obviously I stood no chance. it's clear that she's in love. I mean just the way her face lit up when she saw him and a breathtaking smile came up on her face. She's probably head over heels for him, and he'd be crazy if he didn't feel the face towards her. 

the thing that hurt more was that she wasn't just a little crush. She was also my childhood crush, I'd been infatuated with her since forever. Always protecting her, well, excluding these last years when I've been a total d*ck to her and lost all contact with her. I'd always regretted it. I knew I would even before I left her. If been pressured by those "friends" of mine, because they said being friends with her would've been "uncool". How stupid of me it was when I listend to them.

As soon as I saw Haya, I quickly went up to her and we went to the car to go home.

Joury's POV

I could feel my face light up from happiness. I havn't seen Ya3goob in nearly a year. Ya3goob is my older brother illi yadriss ib America. Uhwa ya ilyom imurni ana w5alood. I probably looked stupid smiling so much, it's just that I missed him so much. We were extremely close and he helped me through a lot. And anyone who's look at me right now would think in in love, with him loool bas wai3, gilna u5ooy wa7ibba bas ya3ni mu chithi :p

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Chapter 7♡

me: shtabeen?!!

Jawan: ilnas isalmoon awal shay 

me: inzain jad shtabeen imga3datni ilsa3a thiman on a Friday

Jawan laughed at me

me: o chub yalla goolay

Jawan: kint adri ma ra7 titthakirain, yalla tzahibay ilsa3a tisi3 bamurich inroo7 bait Dana for her birthday pool party

me: 9a7 shfini ana nisait, bas 7amdilla ams ri7t il avenues wsharaitlaha hadiya fa madri shlon ra7 3an bali inna it's today

Jawan: agool agool roo7ay tzahibay bye Jayjay

me: cham marra agoolich lat sameeni jayjay, inzain bye

I checked the date on my phone, it was the 20th of September. It's Dana's 16th birthday, it was also her twin, Ahmad's birthday. I don't really know him, but I know he's in my school.

***

I blow dried my hair after I got out if the shower I wore a neon pink bikini and a plain black crop top over it. I quickly slip on my favorite pair of shorts that have cute little sunflowers all over it. I wear my black beanie and my plain white high top converse with my tie dye laces. I take my phone off the charger and grab my white little duffle bag that has a towel, hair brush, clothes for after swimming and etc... I get Dana's birthday present and run down the stairs.

***

My dad is eating breakfast while reading the newspaper. 

me: 9aba7 il5air yuba

I kissed his head and sat down next to him.

Ubooy: shmga3dich il7een il3ada ma tgoomeen laiman in7u6 il'3ada

me: ilyom wa7da min rifeejati 3eedmiladha, imsawha pool part. E yubba, wain umi?

Ubooy: 6li3at gabul shway ma3a 5altich

My phone rang meaning Jawan yat. 

Jawan: Leela & I are here, yalla 6il3ay 

***

me, Leela & Jawan: HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANA! 

we gave her a hug and her presents, she put them on a table where there were other presents on it. She led us to the swimming pool that was inside the house. There was a huge window that overlooked the garden.

In the pool were about ten other girls, I got out of my top, shorts and shoes and put them away in my bag. I tied my hair up in a topknot and jumped in with a splash.

***

It's been fifteen minutes since we got in the pool. We were playing volleyball in the water but we were playing it wrong half the time so we were just laughing wga3d insolif. Roar by Katy Perry was blasting through the speakers. 

I saw someone in the garden, actually a bunch came it the garden. It was obvious that they coudn't see us, but I think they knew we were in here because the music probably would be heard if you're in the garden. I scanned the faces of the boys, I recognized Ahmad, Dalal's brother. Talal, he was in my class all the way through primary school, Abdulla, I don't know him at all. There were some other guys I didn't know but some of them I've seen them in school. 

One of them turned around, I saw his face. What!?

This. Can. Not. Be. Happening. This. Can. Not. Be. Happening. This. Can. Not. Be. Happening. was all that was going through my mind. 

I told Jawan and Leela that he was here.

Leela: Dana! Hatha u5ooch 9a7? w hathol rab3a?

me: La2 Leela shhh 5ala9 I whispered to Jawan. She gave me a look that was like her telling me 'relax, I know what I'm doing'

Dana: Ee, uhma il7een chinna biroo7oon ilshalai aw shay. Don't worry they can't see us. Jamat ildireesha ta3kis min barra.

***

We spent the rest of the day messing around. 'Though all day I coudn't help but think about Mohammed. I don't know why, it's just... hard to explain.

Especially since he looks extra fine today.

Chapter 6♡

he sat down next to me, but he didn't realize who i am li2ana ma chafni 3adil

him: salam ismi-
me: mohammed, um hi 

to say that i was nervous is the understatement of the century. He looked at me weirdly, like i was going to disappear in any second
mohammed: ...Joury? he asked, not believing his eyes. Bas to be honest madri shinu can mitwa8i3 since he transferred to my school, o the only reason i wouldn't be here is if i transferred schools, which obviously didn't happen. Fa ya3ni the chance of finding me here is more than likely.
me: ee, ana Joury

***
Leela: 7ilfaw!!! 
Jawan & me: walla
Daleela: umbai.. inzain sh9ar ba3dain
me: wala shay, ma kalamta 6ool il7i9a '3air laman si2alni ilsa3a cham, bas the whole lesson it was sooo awkward
Jawan: wba3ad uhwa thabi7ha 5az
me: ha shaku?
Jawan: kilma i looked over at you two intay imtan7a jreeb witnameen, akeed mara7 itla7'6een
me: oh chub chub
***
I threw my bag on the floor, and threw myself onto the bed and slept for two hours. Kint abi bas anam like fifteen minutes bas ana ams kilish ma nimt 6ool illail im on tumblr and twitter li2ana ma gidart anam. When I woke up i checked my phone and I had a dm, I don't know why, but I just was really hoping that it would be from him. I opened it..

it said
hello, you're beautiful, don't forget that. [ via http://tweettunnel.com  ]
i sighed, closed my phone and went downstairs to eat something

Chapter 5♡

*first day of school*

Maria: Joury mama igool if you don't wake up now rah titakirain yalla yalla Joury for school 
Joury: Okay okay kani gimt

I looked at the time and it was 6:32. shit.

Ana kint ga3d a7ud snooze on my alarm every 5 minutes min ilsa3a sit. I only have half an hour to get ready.

It was the first day of my Junior year in High School. Ibsir3a I took a fifteen minute shower, dried my hair. My hair is auburn brown and naturally wavy. I quickly wore my school uniform and my Mary Jane style school shoes. Libast my light blue backpack and sprinted down stairs. I kissed my mum's cheek wsalamt 3alaiha, my dad already left for work.

6ala3tli 7aleeb kakaw min ilthalaja li2ana kilish ma ashtihi akil shay il9ub7. Itha yi3t ashtireeli shay min the school canteen. 6ila3t min ilbait w 6i5alt ilsayara o nimt ta'3reeban 6ool il6ireej.

***

Daleela: JOURY!! i missed you waayid
and leela hugged me tightly 

me: Daleela ana chayfitich gabul ams...
Daleela: ilwa7id may9eer yolah 3alaich ya3ni she stuck her tongue out and I saw a couple people that i guess you can say we're friends, but I don't know them that well. There was Retaj, Sara, Nujood, Dana and Noor. I gave each of them a little hug. 5 minutes later Jawan came, we were all just catching up and talking until the bell rang.

***

Di5alt English class which was my first lesson, Jawan was with me and English is one of favorite subjects.

Mr Green: Ok class, im going to sit you guys in alphabetical order.
Stanast li2ana normally its alphabetical 3ala the family name w me and Jawan's start with the same letter so i'll most probably sit next to her.
Mr Green: Ill call out your name and you sit in the seat im pointing at. Oh, and ill be seating you guys boy-girl-boy-girl.
Jawan: Waai3 la2 abi ag3ad yamich
me: adri bas ilstath sa5eef shasawi

Mr Green started calling out names, he then said a name that i could not believe, no this can't be happening. Wait. Sh*t. Sh*t. Sh*t.
9ij inna our last names dont start the same but the letters are close in the alphabet. I don't think it's a coincindence. It's just fate, and it wants me to be miserable. ugh

bas shall 9idfa inna it's..

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